After all, it is just nothing in the end. Just like you thought so.

Happy Birthday girl. Smart girl like me can forsee all the head scratchy preparations and made the right decision. NO, to make a birthday big! Entertaining every single relative friends and tiring out yourself. But i enjoyed myself quite much. Wanted to stay through the 3 days but was on OT plus bad stomach cramp on the 1st day so decided to go only on the 2nd evening. Slacked at home and took a couple of naps before setting out to the east. When i reach pirsa ris, it was already 6plus 7. Said i'll be there at 5 plus.. well that's me. BBQ! Her relatives were there and when mothers are there, you won't be afraid that food might not be cooked well. Ate lots of sausages and hotdogs. Few by few mj friends come. Church mates come in groups too. Although she only invite her close friends and relatives, booking 2 chalets is already packed enough.

Went for a scroll at the beach with afew of my friends. We sat down on the metal cover covering a deep well. Updating each other on the things and happenings. All of them are doing well. We've grown mature. The topics we talk are so different from when we are in secondary school. Our view points of things change together. They told me somethings, which i know right from the beginning. Just like how i always console others, it's so hard when it's you.

Went back it's cake cutting time. I should've put on make up to cover those ugly scars and make my face more colour.. not so pale. After that relatives with children went home. Leaving the whole 2 chalets with only 9 people through the night. I KOed at 1plus. It was set that he'll have a mid night BBQ but i supposed one slept after another.

Woke up at 7 plus in the morning and took a scroll along the beach myself. The sun is not so glaring. I walked past aloha loyang and sat at the rock along the waveline where i and raf sat when we were at the class chalet in aloha. Around the same and same spot. I thought about things again. Being alone now, i sat there and talked to myself. I skipped church that sunday. Just feeling tired and want to just play truant for some time. I dont want to put a false impression that i am ok when i am not, I just want to be myself and i dont want to lie. Next sunday...

We girls set up the BBQ pit ourselves and heat up some left overs for breakfast without margarine or butter. Again sausages and hotdogs. After that another set of talk before the security shoo us out of the chalet. We went to white sands coffee club to drink something. gou an, our secondary school friend was having some relationship problem. At least he knows what's happening and can figure out what probability of the outcome...well

We board the train from pasir ris at 2 plus and by then i reach home it is already 4. Slept and slept again. Reported to work with my small eyes plus smaller. The 2 days at the chalet was worth it, really. Least i still have friends who cares and are reliable though there are only few, but that's more that enough:)

Today my in-charge came in late to do the last arrangements before she leaves for labour. Quite fun to be pragnant, although painful but all the preparation and the looking forward to the birth, all your colleagues shooing you to the hospitals and blah blah.. Hmm another sale on friday!