Now i started work, realised how nice it is to slack at home, wake up anytime, watch tv, having evening naps, go online, find fault with my brother.... now i dont even have time for myself. working OT almost everyday, total hours awake at home =3. Now i fear clicking on outlook every morning, see the long list of bolded subject head, and then go crazy. Free to go shopping as and when i like, looking at tours agencies brochures without thinking needing to taking leave. Haven't been to malaysia for quite sometime. Miss the food and i need to shop for bags. Maybe it's me, i want to take leave but it never happen.. not that my boss wont let me, but it's the uneasy feeling that keep stopping me from doing so. Don't want to 'ma fan' others to do my job for me. Received the NTU admission handbook, CRY!! so many procedures and 'what the --' are they talking about! so thick!