3 Days in Malacca. Had fun and Spent much much $$. Went for foot reflexology. Honestly.. no feeling.. an hour of time wasting session could have done more shopping:( ok lar.. at least enjoyed the last 5 mins where they twist your body and back till you hear cracks.. shiok! In total, bought 3 bags, 1 tube, 1 spaggatti strip, 1 singlet.. Guess this is one of the habits cultivated my the working me. Took leave tomorrow! another day of rest before i do my last four days in adidas, theoratically, depending on the new stuff learning ability. Orientation camp starting 19 July(5nights). A new atmosphere, new people, new challenges and problems, feeling lazy and tired for new stuffs. No longer having the stamina to show happy face. Easily irritated and can't be bothered.

Belinda's Spendings:
Take home salary last month ~ S$1600
Family expenses: $450
Singapore shopping: $150
Kushin Bo: $250 (a matter of days)
Malaysia trip: RM350= S$180
EZ link = $50

Went for both my secondary school friend's bday party. Both in NTUC parsa ris. Both booked from friday to sunday. Went for both BBQ then hung out in TTC. Talked about the old times. Decided not to stay in hostel. Not worth the effort and $$, furthermore my house is in the west.

Few weeks ago, a friend called. Well i hope you don't take comparisation between relationships. Challenges in your life is not placed for no reason. You will only be put through challenges which you can handle. Once into a relationship, whether should or not, since you've been into it then see what you can learn or gain from it. Whether you grow more mature out of it, more open to the reality, understand what you really want, your tolerance level, notice your reaction towards problems.. Relationships should not be like swimming.

- Jumping into a pool
Cold, excited, energetic, happy, new, unpredictable

-Swim
Play, Enjoy, Push your stamina, Drink pool water, get your nose filled with water and start sneezing

- Climb out
body feels heavy, weak, legs wolbly, tired, enough and sick of water.

You can go for a swim every week and feel the same thing every week. But if you go into a relationship every time and feel the same feeling every time, how worthful is your heart? You can go into a 100th relationship, but if your attitude towards all of them are always the same, always just for a swim, how can you expect a different outcome by doing just the same thing everytime? The different partners might find you new but all will get bored and sick one day and it's because of the same reason that you both part. If you have realised and treat the problem in your 1st few relationships, do you have to go through 100th relationship to then see that problem? Or you prefer to go through many relationship till the relationship that hurts you most for you to see the problem and then to change for that person. What if it is too late? if i tell you 1 year down the road you will meet the person who is really yours for life and will leave you then if you refuse to do any change. Will you bother to save the regret now if you can?