It's just sometimes... i look back and wonder

am i regretting decisions which i've made. Were those impulsiveness? I'm not strong to stand alone. I know. distractions and worries to live up to expectations.

Still not able to put down. appeared to have accepted the fact and moved on. knowing thinking in me is otherwise. refused to admit that those still existed. secretly waiting and dreaming to happen. praying and hoping to never happen. weak and tired, hands are open yet chains are invisibly tied strong. entered then left, hello! you are? a way of protection, a way to get away, a way to console the being, a way to learn a lesson. wasn't in any part of plan A to Z. acceptance is free of charge, no hair less, no muscle movement.   

shown failures required to activate panic.