Life is never smooth sailing. Ups and Downs makes us grow to mature. At times we thought we are heading the right way, we got so confident, until someone spoke some sense at a point of time. It could be that i am a sort who is easily influenced by others, or maybe i am a person who doesn't stand firm on my values. I have lots of thinking and believes in the past. I expect myself to be able to achieve them but when i meet a situation, all these thinking and believes seems to be empty talks, seemed to be a worthless day-dreaming topic. There is no one to blame. Not being strong enough is not what i can control. However there is no right or wrong answers. To a certain extent she was correct, it does not matter as outsiders can only probe but does not have the rights to know all unless you do not want them to. To do that, isn't it as good as lying? Maybe it makes you feel better as no body knows but should they find out one day? It is good to lie to a friend or friends about something you don't want them to know? Being your friend, shouldn't they be more understanding and accepting? To me, a hurting past need not be buried. Present yourself the true way you have always been. If there is a need to hide the past, do it such that no one will ever find out. Otherwise you will hurt the ones who had been honest and true to you, as they are the ones who are definitely better and more worth for your trust than the history. Having to hide something for your whole life won't prolong your life, seriously.

Results will be released very soon. I was clearing up my semester notes a while ago. Fastening them by subjects. Glance through some modules exam question papers and reviewed it with my lecture notes, it is like so disappointing. Carelessness owned me again. Not sure if i am able to pull up my cGPA with the results soon to be released. Hopefully it doesn't gets pulled down so much. I pray..

Holiday vacation assignment ended last week. It was only one week in changi airport. Our work station was a room filled with shelves, books and data of rainfalls. 20 odd of us work in that room for a week, with no outsiders. Lots of fun, jokes and laughter. There is no one supervising us as the supervisor is our lecturer who is in school when we are working. First time, working without a supervisor over you and familiar people around. Breaks are never boring. Snapping our hydro-graphs at our own pace. Teasing friends when tired or taking short naps at the back. The only sad thing is that i have to travel from the west to the east everyday and reading of the hydro-graphs to tabulate the data is going to be hell (as heard from my other friends).