Living by principles, to do as what you promised, Is this suppose to be the way? Will it cause you to lose someone who you do not intend to? Some say you do not need to change any expectation, some say you cannot be so selfish. What is the difference between obeying your principle and being selfish?

Sometime ago, I've thought about somethings. Somethings that needs to be thrashed out. It's a promise, a word that says everything is over. Everything should be just kept under the carpet and never to be dug out. Why did it happen? No one will know the answer, reason - principle and promise. Is it really so simple and direct, so weak and fragile? I will ever know why?

Now that technology is so advance, everywhere you can know everything. You can even act as if you don't care about anything in front of everybody because you know that is not the only way where you can find out what you need and want to. Press the start button, do a few clicks and type a few letters, nicely presented in front of you. Lacking of further elaboration and interpretation function. We can only rely on the feeling. Not sure of what is actually going on on another persons mind. Is it you? or not you, it's before you.

Without principles, without self ego, without strength, maybe things can turn out more clearer. But i do not want to live without them. I want to know the real reason. Contradiction.